99 problems but a b*tch aint one

You said it Jay-Z.

Micropost:

I need money. Jobs have not contacted me yet about start date. Little head is worried.

I also keep running into things. Like, my proprioperception is way way off. Yes I used "like (vally-girl inflection included)" and proprioperception in same sentence. I have banged both my knees on the car's dashboard. Same car that I dinged another car with. That little bump should cost me close to two grand. This morning I accidentally kicked an open drawer with my shin. And while I was babysitting today I banged my forehead (who are we kidding, five-head) on an open kitchen cabinet. I am not a klutz. My proprioperception is usually great. I try very hard to be a safe aware driver. whatever planet is in in retrograde needs to right its way again. and quickly. Also my jobs need to call me. girl's gotta get paid.

fortunemoralcookie: Hey stupid, patience is needed, but so is getting your head out of your ass. Also, look where you're going. yes, metaphorically, but mostly literally. That is all. oh and DUCK! really, now, that is all. (it was giant cookie)

We were made to never fall away

"You think to create is to forgive yourself in public. Fine. But don't think I can forgive you in private, because I can't, not ever. You're just an appetite and if you stopped being greedy you'd die."
~Louisa in "Nine" (2009)

Today marks four weeks out here in the PACNorthwest. And so it is. Things have been eventful. I have applied to several jobs and have secured tentatively two positions at two different restaurants/bars. It has been chilly weather wise, and now it is beginning to warm up and be more sunny. I'd like to tell the gods who control the weather that I appreciate the sun. The music video is finished and looks great.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ubGUJJlQjg

I babysat a few days and that gave me some funds but I think I'm going to have to get a vehicle soon because it's pretty inconvenient busing from where I am currently staying to my potential jobs. I also got into a teensy weensy fender bender on saturday, so it looks like I'll be scraping together some funds to pay for damages (big frown face). This teensy weensy fender bender got a huge dramatic emotional response from me, suggesting that I am still coping with transitional / cancer/ break up things. But hey, I've been feeling pretty good most of the time so a few tears shed over crunching cars can't be that bad of a deal.

I'm looking forward to starting work, to meet some people, but I'm a bit nervous too. I should find out more details this evening on when I began.

I got some other good news this week. Apparently, I received the Creative writing BFA thesis award in Poetry for this academic year. I was really ecstatic to hear this, because I needed a little boost in confidence to pursue some writing avenues out here. Also I worked really hard on my thesis and I was going through a lot during that time so I have a lot of attachment to it.