Don't Go Turning Minnows Into Whales

I am a bit homesick. I am also overdue for a post. I just returned from Nebraska where I was for a week visiting family and attending my cousins wedding. It was a beautiful affair. On my return trip, upon landing in Denver this is what I saw, a rare creature indeed.....

Travel Log

Denver Airport August 3^rd 2010

Sighted: None other than middle aged country-fried hot-mess (two t’s, or no?) sporting newly minted lubed-up cartoon shoulder chipmunk tattoo. Not believed to be feral, however deemed to be a rite-aid brand of cheeky creature, not resembling Alvin and his ilk, and therefore presumably the cheaper of the shoulder dwelling inkrodents.

Music: Meatloaf, note to self: must pray to the gods of sex, and rock, and drums. Also Mary J Blidge is beast. Onelove.

I do wish, however, that the flight attendant deemed it appropriate to ration my soda intake instead of bequeathing me the entire can. A window seat, though greatly envied by all of the non-window seat-sitters, does not lend itself to convenient access of the lavatory. Also my stature, though above average for most women (not outrageously so however) does not lend itself easily to the singular square-foot of airplane lavatories. In these instances, I would rather sit in one uncomfortable position for the duration of the flight than unfold my cramped limbs to crouch-walk up the aisle, to then refold myself accordion style into the unisex pee-in-the-sink-that-doubles-as-a-urinal closet, and then summon up the courage to expose my girlie parts to the dangerous element that is little more than a port-a-potty flying 30,000 feet in the air in a steel canister, not unlike a Pringles can with size comparable Barbie wheels. We humans are nothing but crunchy fried stackable potato waifs waiting for the popping and the fun non-stopping. Now if only I could get the Pringle guy’s face tattooed on my ass, my hot mess status could be instantly elevated.

Writhing under your riding hood

Okay, so, you know how when you want to tell someone a story but it is vastly long and seriously, too involved and so you give a shortened, remixed version, that includes omission of some, not quite pertinent details, really just a smattering of vivid colors and grandiose details that may eventually, superficially, make the supposed story more interesting, but alas by leaving them out it saves time and you the feeling of tediously boring your listener to death?

Such is the state of this post. Also, the very reason why I have not posted for such a long time.

For the sake of brevity here is what has occurred:

Work. cool. some money. need more money. meeting people. music listening. even more cool. awesome pig cooking chef haute event. passenger in car accident. all okay. ribs bruised etc etc. car shopping. car bought. 2003 Saturn Vue. Black, leather interior. More work. more meeting people. More music listening. Beer drinking. Georgetown. Ballard. Freemont. Family BarbQ's. SIFF: Ambiente (Spanish shorts) Skeletons (surreal British humor Ghostbusters?). More work, 50,00 margarita making. Reading: Anna Karenina, Yoga and the Path of Healing, The New Yorker. Movie watching: La Vie En Rose, An Education

Coming back to North Carolina for Jake's Graduation Next weekend. More writing to follow. However, no promises on when the next installment will happen, however. :)

99 problems but a b*tch aint one

You said it Jay-Z.

Micropost:

I need money. Jobs have not contacted me yet about start date. Little head is worried.

I also keep running into things. Like, my proprioperception is way way off. Yes I used "like (vally-girl inflection included)" and proprioperception in same sentence. I have banged both my knees on the car's dashboard. Same car that I dinged another car with. That little bump should cost me close to two grand. This morning I accidentally kicked an open drawer with my shin. And while I was babysitting today I banged my forehead (who are we kidding, five-head) on an open kitchen cabinet. I am not a klutz. My proprioperception is usually great. I try very hard to be a safe aware driver. whatever planet is in in retrograde needs to right its way again. and quickly. Also my jobs need to call me. girl's gotta get paid.

fortunemoralcookie: Hey stupid, patience is needed, but so is getting your head out of your ass. Also, look where you're going. yes, metaphorically, but mostly literally. That is all. oh and DUCK! really, now, that is all. (it was giant cookie)

We were made to never fall away

"You think to create is to forgive yourself in public. Fine. But don't think I can forgive you in private, because I can't, not ever. You're just an appetite and if you stopped being greedy you'd die."
~Louisa in "Nine" (2009)

Today marks four weeks out here in the PACNorthwest. And so it is. Things have been eventful. I have applied to several jobs and have secured tentatively two positions at two different restaurants/bars. It has been chilly weather wise, and now it is beginning to warm up and be more sunny. I'd like to tell the gods who control the weather that I appreciate the sun. The music video is finished and looks great.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ubGUJJlQjg

I babysat a few days and that gave me some funds but I think I'm going to have to get a vehicle soon because it's pretty inconvenient busing from where I am currently staying to my potential jobs. I also got into a teensy weensy fender bender on saturday, so it looks like I'll be scraping together some funds to pay for damages (big frown face). This teensy weensy fender bender got a huge dramatic emotional response from me, suggesting that I am still coping with transitional / cancer/ break up things. But hey, I've been feeling pretty good most of the time so a few tears shed over crunching cars can't be that bad of a deal.

I'm looking forward to starting work, to meet some people, but I'm a bit nervous too. I should find out more details this evening on when I began.

I got some other good news this week. Apparently, I received the Creative writing BFA thesis award in Poetry for this academic year. I was really ecstatic to hear this, because I needed a little boost in confidence to pursue some writing avenues out here. Also I worked really hard on my thesis and I was going through a lot during that time so I have a lot of attachment to it.

What made you so bitter inside?

Okay, I suck at everything. making friends. finding jobs. yoga. even breathing. And now I will stop being hyperbolic. Now I will be nice. I don't suck, it has only been two weeks, and I will make friends and practice my yoga and my breathing. Oh, and look at the economy, jobs are scarce and yet I will still find something. Surely. There, I feel better. Do you?

The Madeleine Peyroux concert was amazing! I really love her bluesy earthy jazz and the venue, The Jazz Alley, was something I had never previously experienced. Candle-lit tables encircle the stage while servers in black move unobtrusively throughout the audience taking orders, dropping drinks. I felt like I had transported back into the 40's. A couple danced happily, silhouetting an exit door frame. Afterwards, we went salsa dancing and that was terribly fun, however, I was very rusty. I'm rusty at a lot of things. Twenty-three and rusty. But here.

I had an extensive job search last week, and got turned down numerous of times. I've applied at the Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation (Oooooo I really want that one), Amazon, a couple different hotels, a smattering of restaurants. I think tomorrow I will plan on dropping a fleet of resumes for service industry jobs. I've been babysitting for a 7 week old beauty, and scattering my business cards to multiple parental units.

On Friday evening we shot my segment of the music video. It was thrilling because we filmed in a downtown Seattle area called Belltown with a small group (2 actors, 2 helpers, 1 director, 1 DP) guerrilla style. At one point, I had to behave drunkenly through an unsuspecting crowd and they gawked and laughed as though I really was THAT girl. I also got shoved by some girl. Look who's on candid camera. The camera was so tiny that it was clearly missed by everyone. On Saturday, I finally went out with people my own age, my cousin's cousins. It was a good clean fun time, yet I should have known better than to try to keep up. Sunday was spent in bed nursing one of the worst hangovers I have had in a long time.

This week, I am going to set some goals for writing and yoga. I'm going to research some writing groups, because I think that I need a little bit of direction for getting back in the groove. Also, I think I will try to stop by the large public library in Seattle and see what that have in terms of literary journals available in the stacks. I am going to try to do at least one round of sun-salutations everyday on correct breath and maybe build off of that. I am focusing on breath here recently and I believe I need to build my stamina and also breathe through some things that I am still holding on to physically and emotionally. On a different note, I am attempting Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy. Perhaps, I will try some rock climbing this week.

See, I am not utterly incapable of everything. Just mildly fledgling.

You're gonna make me lonesone when you go

I've spent a lovely full packed weekend in West Seattle. On Friday evening, my aunt and I went to a restaurant/bar called Matador after a nice Thai dinner, of which I ate a shockingly good pumpkin curry. The bar is a bit upscale compared to some divey places in West Seattle, however, it was busy with people who began drinking right after work at happy hour and just never made it home. My Aunt and I were accosted by a drunken southern gentlemen from Texas ("Yes, Ma'am"; friendly enough) who proceeded to stumble through pictures of his dogs on his camera phone and lift his Texas T-shirt to display his abs, in contest to the hunky young bartender's theoretical set. I say theoretical because we never did get to see what he had under his shirt ; ). We proceeded to chat up the bar manager to see if Matador was hiring. He implied they weren't currently but that I should bring in my resume soon anyway.

I had an audition scheduled for Saturday afternoon, the independent music video came through, and so we headed back fairly early on Friday evening. Saturday was a bit rainy, yet still beautiful and we headed into downtown Seattle to try to catch my cousins volleyball match before my audition. Needless to say, Murphy's law seems to come around when auditions are looming, we had the wrong site for volleyball. So we headed to the audition location with enough time to grab a quick glass of Savignon before.

The music video is for a band called Unnatural Helpers and they are on Sub Pop's second label Hardly Art. So the audition was at Sub Pop's offices--which is pretty neat for 90's grunge music fans. Having never done a music video I wasn't sure what to expect. The night before I was sent an email describing the scene in full detail, with every emotion expected and when they were expected to occur. This got me a little nervous because, I tend to operate with the training that if it's not there emotionally you don't force it or fake it...

The audition itself went fairly well. I didn't cry at the drop of the hat, that was maybe expected, but I was fairly emotional and within means of what I was given to work with. After the audition, I met up with my aunt back at the bar and had a celebratory glass of wine and house doughnuts. Julie and I then proceeded to go to a favorite store of hers over on Capitol Hill that is closing in the near future. I found a cute tunic top with blue accents. While at the store, called Presence, the girl at the counter gave us a couple of tips for places that were hiring servers or bartenders, but that I should drop off my resumes ASAP. So in a Dan Brown fashion, Julie and I ran to the nearest library (two blocks), printed off my resume and then proceeded to drive over to Ballard and make a few drops. I talked to the owner at a bar called Shelter and he gave me a few more tips for places where he knew owners and knew they were hiring. One of which was Matador. Small world. After that, we met up with Julie's friend Karen and her adorable three year old son. Karen is an amazing chef and she ended up offering us dinner, which was of course fantastic. I was asked about baby-sitting so hopefully I will be able to make a little cash here soon, by spending some time with a really cute energetic kid. After dinner, we headed back to West Seattle for some tea drinking and music listening.

We took our time this morning, reading and relaxing. I read a couple articles out of The New Yorker, and the Seattle Weekly. We headed out to actually catch my cousin's volleyball game in North Seattle. She played well and they ended up winning the last two sets and the match, despite getting off to a little of a rough start. I got a phone call from the music video people while at the match and I ended up getting the part of drunken girlfriend who is heatedly arguing outside of a night club with her boyfriend. Oh and there is more than likely a vomity end to the scene. Nothing says Fin like an upchuck. I seem to be getting type cast in the drunk role. Maybe I will break out one day, either way it should be a good time and something for my resume. And hell I can look cute while I purge my insides, right? right??! :D

We had some appetizers at a different place in West Seattle and upon entering we ran into who? but the bar manager from Friday evening's excursion. He emphasized again for me to drop off my resume.

Currently, I am sitting in an awesome little cafe a few blocks from my aunts house called The Bohemian. Tonight, Julie and I are going to see a Jazz singer, Madeleine Peyroux. Jazz, a tossing of cookies and resumes, and the weekend has arrived at EL FIN.

Take me for what I am

Well, I have arrived.

It was yesterday amid slight rain and overcast, to be expected. I had a very short layover in Mineapolis that consisted of just enough time to use the restroom and reboard. Thus, I was extremely antsy and ready to deplane. It's always a bit unnerving to change three time zones in one day, and my flight left North Carolina at 7 am. This is all an excuse for why I haven't posted until today. I had a quick lunch after landing and went down for a nice coma in the afternoon.

I woke up this morning, however, to this:

(haha! :P for all you pacific northwest haters) This is the view from my Aunt and Uncle's house out on the Samamish Plateau. I'll be staying here and at my other Aunt's house in West Seattle alternately.

Today has been fairly easy going. Getting settled in and scoping out options.

I had a delicious lunch at a Pho place in Issaqua called Jenny Pho

http://www.yelp.com/biz/jenny-pho-issaquah

I had pho for the first time when I was out here for my visit in February. Pho those who don't know ;) Pho is a vietnamese noodle soup that can have a variety of ingredients, I usually go for the vegetarian. The Pho today was good, but the shrimp spring rolls were amazing. The food all seemed very fresh and immediately prepared. I dumped a ton of siracha in with it and it became super spicy how I like it.

I also sent my headshot and resume in for a non-paying gig, an independent music video. We'll see if anything comes from that.